constable_odo | (no subject)

that's nice

i haven't slept at all in like two days, and i was super exhausted before that. i have no idea when i ate last not counting the little bit of meatloaf i actually ate just now bc ziyal was giving me looks. no one's tried to talk to me for like a day and a half except for ziyal.

i don't even know ziyal.

OuO

i don't know what to say. or do. i'm stuck and i don't know how to fix anything.

you don't need to say or do anything except

like

/be here/

that would be nice.

but dw i'll go back to staring at the wall aimlessly

so i can drag you down too? like i'm doing to apparently everyone near me lately. my deputies won't be in the same room with me. hell, i don't want to be in the same room with me right now.

down to where i'm p fuckin low rn not that anyone on this goddamn station would know

well I WANT TO BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS YOU but APPARENTLY that's too much to ask

I KNOW. and it's not that it's just

i don't know how to function right now. i'm just an object that exists and does its job. everything i got from the baby in the link should have helped me through this but all it's doing is ruining me.

you think i'm much better rn bc looooooooooooooooool at you tbh and

i

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ASDFKSJDFL:ASDFL:ASJD:FLASJDL:FJD:LFJA

YOU

/YOU/

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa

NO i didn't say that. it's... you have your memories of what happened. and i know they're killing you right now and there isn't anything anybody could say to make it any better.

but i have its memories. blushie, I HAVE ALL OF THEM. my own memories were enough, but carrying around what it thought and what it felt. i'm not equipped to deal with this shit.

HOLY SHIT ODO AND YOU WERE JUST GOING TO

WHAT

SAY NOTHING

ABOUT THAT

AT ALL

OH MY GOD /COME HERE YOU IDIOT/

YES. that was the general idea.

i

fine

AUGH WHY ARE YOU SO DUMB COME HERE RIGHT NOW

AND IT DIDN'T OCCUR TO YOU

THAT I MIGHT WANT TO KNOW THIS SOMEDAY

ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

JUST

i don't know i mostly just want it to go away.

i know bb but that's not how it works

unfortunately

i can't make any promises but i'll try not to gross sob all over you again. mostly i am going to sprawl on you and try to stop having brain activity

...alright.

ty ;~;